mission in tact

I don't know if my mission from last semester is as important for me to try and play out this summer semester, but i'd have to say im still intrigued. As i was walking towards my car this morning to go home from class that i absolutely cannot stay awake in, my mission had reawakened. haha! so there goes that.

so here i go again figuring out my major. i know ive told some what i wanted to do, but i think theres more to what i want. i hate being indecisive, but thats just how ive always been. im only that way because i want the best for me, and i hate settling for less; settling especially if it considers a long term effect..possibly lifetime.

we got 2nd at BodyRock, what's new. Not that im not happy about it(because im not lol), but cmaaannn people! its whatever. that whole trip was whatever but i did have a portion of fun. saturday night was hectic as everyone was super faded, super crazy, super disappearing..ah yi yi. i did get to take lots and lots of pictures! theyre up on fb.

starting summer school this past monday was such a drag. i personally have never attended summer school in my entire life up until now. not to mention that i am soooo NOT a morning person whatsoever. pat once said that its funny cus in elementary school up until college kids go to summer school to get smarter and get ahead, but in college its almost like catching up. for the most part its true but at the same time its a little bit weird to think about. if you think about it we have all the time in the world to get things done, but then agian we dont. people always say live your life while you can, but work hard while youre young to have a better future...dangit which way do i go? is there really such thing as a happy medium? there are always things to ponder and to contemplate about. there is always something to desire because once you reach your dreams, where do you go from there? it would be kind of weird to settle wouldn't it? no one stays content for long. i feel like life is a constant struggle, constant decisions, constant change.

there are constant issues everyone has to deal with and you can only be happy for so long. but that's how you grow as a person right? i could get into it, but i won't. life is about how you personally react to it, and the moments that come and go will stay there forever. that's why fights, arguments...its really not worth it. its really hard to believe that there are people out there that won't change and won't give in because they are too prideful of themselves and they think whatever they do is the right way to go. no matter how good of a person you are, if you don't surrender where is the growth in that? it doesnt even matter if youre right, its how you deal with your situations is whats important. this is actually making me a little angry so im gonna stop here.

recital is this weekend and after that, what dancing is next? i better go find something to do. ha.




love.